me write me post you read

Help me get my Threadless design printed!

2011-05-29T13:15:00.001+08:00

Dear friends,

You can help me get my design printed by going to Threadless and scoring it. If my design is printed, Threadless will pay me $2,500 in cash and prizes for it! Please help spread the word!

Thanks!


	Pixel Heart by Amad.Emi

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1260 W. Madison St.
Chicago, IL 60607
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hey

2011-02-19T03:33:00.002+08:00

I think I will stop using blogger. If you guys still wanna read my posts check out http://mencarutsikit.tumblr.com

im baaack :D

2011-01-10T21:39:00.003+08:00

not :D

Vacancy : Testing Engineers

2010-12-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

Test Engineers (QA) - Wanted(Kuala Lumpur, Selangor)

Responsibilities:

• Perform all types of testing including:

• White Box testing, Black Box testing, Integration testing, Performance testing, UI testing, Unit testing

• Test planning, design, implementation, execution and evaluation.

• Design and develop low level custom made test program to test API component.

• Prepare and execute manual and automation scripts.

• Proactively identify test issues and potential process improvement areas, suggest options and recommend approaches.

• Take part in software design discussions, reviews and test strategy sessions.

• Tracks and manages defects to resolution.

• Generates status reports and updates project plans.

• Support management on special projects and proposals.

Requirements:

• 3+ years in test engineering or Software Quality Assurance

• 2+ years experience in Java/J2EE/J2SE development.

• Strong development experience. Ability to develop interface or custom made program to test the API component in low level test fasion.

• Knowledge in at least one of the following scripting languages: Perl, Python, Ruby, XML.

• Experience with open source automation framework.

• Excellent problem analysis, troubleshooting, and resolution skills.

• Ability to review project technical documents and provide input as required.

• Ability to be flexible in project work and multi-task responsibilities.

• Good written and verbal communication skills.

• Excellent planning and organisational skills.

• Autonomous and attentive to detail.

• Experience in an international environment.

• Fluent in English

• Fresh graduates are also welcome to apply

Bear in mind that all requirements listed above that have been met will be void if you are considered not HOT by a group of people lead by me. please look in the mirror before sending in your resume. I mean in people!!! you must be extremely sure that you are hazardously beautiful and hot in order to be accepted for this post.

okay okay just kidding. if you think you have all it takes for that post please send in your resume to me at helmi@compudyne.com.my

Chances

2010-11-11T16:53:00.001+08:00

Chances, we see it in every single day of our lives. What do we made of that? some hope maybe.. or day in day out we will came out with our own negativity towards them.

See

2010-10-28T01:54:00.000+08:00

im still here guys, just spaced out for the longest time. so much have passed that i lost the will to write

Mobile Blogging from here.

Selamat Hari Raya!!

2010-09-08T22:03:00.003+08:00

canne muka awak boleh mirip vokalist padi tu sgt2.. mak awak mengidam nasi eh waktu ngandung dulu2? :P . pis...

2010-08-29T12:34:00.001+08:00

hahahaha!! mak saye tak ngidam makan nasi sebab die makan nasi hari-hari!

Ask me anything

Apakah perasaan kalau hanya tinggal 3 bulan untuk hidup?

2010-08-25T23:30:00.001+08:00

macam skarang.Takut. dah tentu ingat tuhan. hilang segala kegemaran n keinginan. makan ape tak kisah, pakai ape tak kesah. dan mungkin aku syukur yang aku tadek awek lagi. kalau ade awek tapi kite dah nak pergi kan ke sadis?

Ask me anything

cara hilangkan depresi

2010-08-25T00:43:00.002+08:00

kalau depress ape kate kamu semua buat menda yang impulsif. contoh malam ni tepat 12 tgh malam aku tetibe pakai hoodie sarung kasut terus jog dari rumah ke uia pastu patah balik. ape saye dapat? tgk bulan terang pastu awan nampak kepul2. sejuk. pastu balik tu korang ingat leh hilang depress? hahaha yang aku dapat adelah penat yang nak mampus sebab ulang alik ade la lapan kilo aku lari. elehhh at least aku dah terlalu penat nak pikir rase berat kat hati ni dan terus bole tdo. *senyum tipu diri sendiri*

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hoyeahh masih tak tdo haha

gadis punya hal

2010-08-19T01:54:00.000+08:00

wa arini rase macam rajin nak tulis walaupun wa main pilih je tajuk tanpa ada isi pun sebenarnye. apasal plak wa nak basekan diri wa wa pulak ni? mampus la wa saje nak tukar angin yang lu orang nak pening-pening pikir pasal hal tu kenape pulak? pasal gadis ye? tak bes la tajuk tu ape kate wa dengan suka hatinye nak declare yang tajuk post ni mulai dari skarang adelah relationship punye hal. ade yang tak puas hati ke? kalau tak puas hati gi sane amek air semayang gi solat tahajud ke hape. buat ape buang mase bace tulisan penulis yang suka tukar fikiran ? haha okeh2 dah masuk enam line wa tulis ni tapi tak mula2 lagi tulis dengan topik sebenar. okeh relationship ye? lu orang ade awek atau balak ke nak sebok2 bace pasal benda ni? hadoi menyampah la ngan orang yang suke amek tau pasal benda yang takde kaitan dengan diri sendiri nih. ok2 suka hati lu orang la kalau nak bace jugak, wa pun dah rase semak sound2 lu orang dari tadi.

ok wa sambung dengan perenggan baru nak bagi lu orang senang bace. sekarang lu orang kat tahap mane dalam hubungan cintan-cintan nih? pakwe makwe? brape umur lu orang? hek elehhh umo lapan belas? 3 bulan baru jadi pakwe makwe? bes tak perasaan tu? kalau setakat lu rase die awek lu & lu pakwe die takyah nak borak laaa. lu plak? *tuding jari kat awek rambut cantik macam iklan shampoo* oo 2 taun da? sejak dari diploma kat uitm? oo bagus2.. takde maknenye~~ pasni lu bosan ngan pakwe lu, lu cair la ngan mamat yang dah keje bawak evo yang selalu balas2 komen kat facebook lu tu hahaha. okeh next, wei bro wa tanye lu ni... oiii! aaa? ooo dah empat tahun meh? wa ade sorang membe, tepat empat taun je awek die kenal ngan sorang mamat ni tros jek tetibe break ngan die sebab awek die kate diorang ade masalah komunikasi. cool tak? tup2 3-4 bulan awek die tunang habis blaja kawen teros. haha apasal lu tetibe call awek lu tuh? lek lek wa nak tanye orang lain lak. haaa lu yang cun sikit dari wardina tuh. ececehh ngaku lak tu. ha lu brape lame dah? oo dah 6 taun? dah tunang? alhamdulillahhh~ ha lu la kan yang tunang slalu suruh delete wa sebab wa bole blah sket rupa kan? ape? sume membe laki kat facebook dia suh delete? cantiekk~ pasni korang takyah duduk ngan manusia dah, kawen nanti ajak la tunang lu duk kat amazon tu ha kawan ngan ikan arapaima. ha bro lu ape cite? kite sebaye ye tak? bini lu ade kantoi sms gersang ngan laki lain lagi tak? bawak2 la sabar ye bro, wa nasihatkan lu kuat kalau2 lu dah fikir masak2 nak cerai nanti~ wa tumpang simpati.

ape lagi yang lu orang nak buat muke ingin tahu lagi? tu je la cite wa. wa dah ngantuk nak tdo~ babai~~~ hihihi~~~

Sorry

2010-08-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

Hi there, i would love to write about how happy I am with my everyday life. yeah i really do. but things are just the way they are for me. I still stuck with the feeling of emptiness. There are instances where somebody put a very wide smile on my face but yeah.. like everything in this world including our life it is just temporary. Life really seemed to be running in circles to me. I mean it is really true. I'm just sick of being in the same situation over and over again. Most of the time I felt so selfish because I wanted things that are not meant for me. Be it security, sense of belonging to another or just plain phrases like "i love you". The most selfish thought that came out of my head is why on earth did God showed me the things that i sincerely wanted but did not really showed me any signs on how to get it. Dear Allah, I am sorry.

Soal Langit

2010-07-21T00:16:00.002+08:00

di mana padang mu?
di mana petang itu?
di mana gadis itu?
berbaringkah dia disampingmu?
adakah satu pun lirik yang bertulis?
adakah gitar disentuh jari halus?

tersenyumkah dia melirik kamu?
paling paling tidak tersenyumkah kamu?

bila fikir balik

2010-07-11T18:42:00.004+08:00

pertama kali saya tak putus asa adalah untuk bersama kamu. segala pantang saya sendiri saya persetankan.

Justifying my actions

2010-07-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

Is it wrong waiting for someone till the very last bit of hope? I'm tired of substitutions and now i found her I will stay till the last microsecond heh. i really mean it. well as long as the kadi didn't start asking people "sah ke tak?" and the witnesses claimed sah sah sah. i will stay. yea i will stay. at least I can say to myself that i stayed till the end.

Girl

2010-07-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

I need You and Me
to just let others see
I wish you would
maybe we could

this is not a tale of boy meets girl
I've been that boy
and won't let you be that girl
It is about us
of what we confess
without proper manifest

cilake

2010-06-24T01:12:00.000+08:00

pernah tengok klip video menanti sebuah jawaban? cilake betol video klip tu.

Me in a Levi's ad

2010-06-21T02:19:00.000+08:00

Me in a Levi's ad~~

Ok tipu ha ha

Me

2010-06-12T02:18:00.000+08:00

Okay, how's my life currently? great it's going well for me. I have a steady girlfriend, I drive a Ferrari, managed to get myself a mansion with 20 bedrooms. really, I got nothing more to ask. sigh what a great life I'm living in now. Oh by the way... sorry if there are any typos, my butler tend to do that most of the time.

signing off,

Sir Ahmad Helmi Lame-o

Past

2010-05-31T22:03:00.001+08:00

Kalene, wherever you are I just want you to know that i forgive you. live well.

wuuu u so vain lah

2010-05-23T16:59:00.000+08:00

Ever came across people uploading vain pictures of them with this caption? "this is what happened when i get bored". ha ha yeah really? bored eh? ecececeh..~ that's just your justification for uploading them hohoho. I know~ you must probably thought to yourself "hey i look so damn gorgeous in this pose. damn people must think that im so bloody in love with myself. oh well just make up excuses for being bored then~". hey its okay la its your picture, people who judge you for that can laugh all they want but if you think that it made you happy just go on and upload those pics already. no unnecessary excuse caption please hihihi.

wuuu~~ im so vain~~` hahaha

no title

2010-05-18T00:23:00.001+08:00

You asked on where I had been gone
places and faces my eyes had ventured
that my action of solitude is not a wise one
You said i need a woman with me on my bed

not that I am fond of being alone
just that i'm tired of winning the hearts
of the ones whom can't be with me

single sebab sudah serik bercinta, kureng laku atau masih jual mahal?

2010-05-07T17:55:00.001+08:00

erk aku amat tak bole blah ngan perkataan jual mahal . haha mane aku tau nape aku single lagiii. saye mau yang saye suke je. ok abis cerita hahaha. jual mahal adelah benda yang bongok. dah tentu la kite kene sama2 mau kan?

Ask me anything

gambar katun katun background ni sape? watak komik ke?

2010-05-06T19:44:00.001+08:00

ni saye lukis gambar saye dan rakan2 hahaha

Ask me anything

kenape byk dpt soalan dari girls? u player eh?

2010-04-29T16:12:00.001+08:00

kejadahnye player ha ha ha. kalo saye player tadek keje saye nak luahkan perasaan tulis blog hahaha

Ask me anything

tensen

2010-04-28T01:52:00.001+08:00

aku tensen arini. so aku gi carik gado. sori la sesape yang kene peninju dan kerajang berapi tadi

ha ha bodo.

what kind of girl are you looking for?

2010-04-03T09:18:00.002+08:00

hmm sense of humor, not too clingy. decisive. but ummm.. im not looking. im waiting haha

Ask me anything

creep cover

2010-03-20T20:02:00.001+08:00

She's gone

2010-03-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

She's gone with my hope
bringing with her my hearth in progress
dumped it along the slope
bitter end of our half finished manifest

She's gone with those things
the photos that were never taken
the fireflies that we never visited
the promises left unkept

She's gone
the only trace of her
left in the part of my heart
when ventured
it hurts the most

2010-03-14T19:20:00.002+08:00

i shaved my head.

Things now and then

2010-03-09T20:32:00.001+08:00

It has been awhile since i updated this thing. and im proud to say i am finally..... busy.. ha ha. Seriously, just came back to celcom after 2 months involved in TM Kelana Jaya project. Got back with my colleagues and everything seems so different. My workstation is now someone else's... a girl web designer who is under the supervision of my friend Mizi. yeah im practically a nomad now. there are two more new faces in the company a QA and a BA and both of them are girls too.

Right now I'm having a training at Parkroyal Hotel to be a certified software tester and i am trying so hard to make sense of what the trainer is blabbering about. This is bad and I'm afraid of flunking the test this coming Friday. The team now has came up with a social Wednesday where we have activities like playing snooker, karaoke and some others... basically killing time by having some fun.

i rarely got the chance to go online now. been missing my chat sessions with good good people that i have been missing. yeah I missed doodling this at YM too

now and then checked my Facebook. Oh yea i found out that fb is so quiet these days... people are busy I guess.

Last Maulidur Rasul one of my closest friend, Leman has tied the knot with his beloved Ita. It was held at Ita's hometown, Ipoh. Went there with a group of 8 and spent two days there. such good times. congrats sabahan haha.

Another good news! Dianne and Said is now the proud mom and dad of Ahmad Nadeem Qasimi :D I am very happy for them. I had been informed by Dianne that she was admitted via sms as i was driving home from work. and the next morning at Ipoh at 9am i got the good news about this adorable little guy. Hope that both baby and the mum is well.

And as for the photos. I took it with my digital harinezumi 2 that i just bought. Really fun thing to have. but really costly because it uses a CR2 battery and it last for about only 1 day plus. the video is great where it can catch a very clear audio too. Tried to find a rechargeable CR2 but failed to do so bcause every photo shop that i went to told me they didn't sell rechargeable CR2s. The only way to get it is to order from ebay. Stupid. anyways here are some other pic that i took with this thing. till then have a nice day. and wish m luck for the test this friday

Moonlight lit street - Amad Melody project

2010-02-24T01:55:00.001+08:00

im walking by a moonlight lit street
i saw a pair of gloves lying still
and i dont know how to say this
but im not certain of what you feel

And im passing a bag of rubbish
I kicked it around and start to make a mess
I said im leaving this by sunrise
Still I cant help leaving cos u r still in my head

Dialog yang tiba-tiba terpikir

2010-02-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

Lokasi : Gedung membeli belah

Si gadis: Sayang~~ cantik kan i pakai baju ni~~ wiu~ wiu~Wiu

Si jantan: Cantik jugok~~~

Si gadis: hmph saye benci awak. pergi la terjun dalam tangki tahi (ayat yang saje ditulis dengan melampau)

Si jantan: ..........ape salah aku?

Sebenarnye awek dia terlalu saiko. sebab pakwe dia jawab 'cantik jugak' dia menganggap dalam kepala pakwe dia sudah ada gambaran gadis yang lebih cantik kalo pakai baju yang sama. jawapan yang diharapkan adalah 'cantiieek~~' .

ahahha kenape aku terpikir benda ni? Aku yakin ade kes macam ni dalam dunia ni ha ha

P/s: gambar tidak ade kena mengena dengan kisah

Esok dah keje

2010-02-17T00:39:00.001+08:00

cuti ni tadek buat ape-ape....~~ cantieekk. oh lupa pulak, ade aktiviti.. mengajar nik main gitar ha ha. nik adalah gadis yang amat cepat pickup. tahniah :)

Oh Langit Duke

2010-02-12T16:28:00.000+08:00

Imbasan

2010-02-12T16:09:00.003+08:00

Dudududdu~~~

2010-02-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

update

2010-02-09T12:56:00.000+08:00

Yeps my everyday life is practically empty right now. ha ha ha ha ha ha.

VIDEO ANDA

2010-02-04T16:49:00.001+08:00

kenapa anda bersetuju bila kekasih atau fuck buddy anda (ish ish ish ha ha) mau merakam aksi halal atau haram anda itu? tak ke pendek akal anda itu? sebab tak semestinya anda akan berkasih sayang selamanya. dan secara bodohnya anda telah memerangkap diri anda sendiri di dalam relationship itu. kate la kekasih itu amat kecewa apabila anda mau putuskan hubungan, tak ke dengan mudah saja dia boleh blackmail ataupun susahkan hidup anda dengan menayang video anda fuck dengannya? hahaha saya masih lagi pelik kenapa banyak sangat gadis bodoh seperti ini. rasanya sudah masuk jutaan video-video amatur yang telah tersebar. tapi bodooooooooooh juga akal gadis-gadis untuk rela dirakam. lagi satu pointer ya, walaupun anda sudah berkahwin sekalipun. kate la anda bercerai, ataupun pasangan anda abusive dan anda mau keluar dari perkahwinan itu? macam mana? mudah kan? macam itu saja anda sudah terperangkap.

P/S: Awkward kan kalau kita nampak orang yang dikenali dalam video-video ini. LAGI-LAGI bila orang yang kita kenal itu adalah gadis yang kita suka. huuuuuuuuui mintak dijauhkan la haha

P/s lagi: perkataan FUCK itu dengan sengaja saya tulis penuh dan terang supaya orang yang google perkataan tu tersangkut ke blog ini. boleh amplify kuasa nasihat ini haha

kaku bisu kaku - Amad Melody Project

2010-02-04T01:41:00.000+08:00

aku tidak boleh bergerak
kerana kakiku kaku
aku tidak boleh berkata
kerana aku dah bisu

lidah ku kaku
aku tak boleh kata
tak boleh nyanyi

aku punya suara yang mendatar kerana..

aku sudah dibius
bius x3
anestetika yang kau beri
anestetika yang kau beri

kentut

2010-01-25T16:28:00.003+08:00

21 letters and goodbyes

2010-01-25T13:02:00.001+08:00

Rub your eyes a little harder

see how reality treats you

when you finally found a temporary shelter

21 letters and goodbyes

broken hearts that we mend

21 letters and goodbyes

we break it once more then

just to stay awake

play the records that we made

till nothing else seems to matter

can you dedicate this last piece for me

21 letters and goodbyes

the one we wrote from monday blunder

21 letters and goodbyes

the one we laughed off with tears

from silly jokes

Midnight Operator - Amad Melody Project

2010-01-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

little girl she spoke of suicide
of jumping from the roof
of cutting her own wrist

she said "friend, i need to finish
of what is left inside of me
need someone to talk to
before i leave tonight"

this girl said her name was mary
dad took her to motels and alleys
now he is dead
now he is dead

little girl she spoke of suicide
of jumping from the roof
of cutting her own wrist

the line went dead
the line went dead
the line went dead

Me write about this weird year

2010-01-17T19:18:00.003+08:00

This year I feel that mood really change for the most of us. Seriously, as the the fireworks were launched at 12am new year's eve I feel that something really different will come; emotionally at least.

That night, on new year as going back to zarie's condo from our magazine meeting at a mamak he spoke to me

"apa kau rase 2010 ni bagi kat kita?"

I replied

"entah. ha ha, aku rase macam pelik."

we both merely laughed at that short awkward conversation. Arrived at his place we had some smoke at the parking lot while watching the fireworks from the condo's hill view of Kuala Lumpur.

Present day. My thoughts about 2010 was true. Change really made its presence known earlier this year.

1. One of my closest girl friend told me she has cancer

2. Zarie's mother was taken to the ICU suddenly on the first Saturday of 2010 with pancreas stones. thank God she is making progress

3. A number of people i know are in a midst of divorce. yea.. they don't even had their first anniversary yet.

Other things about this year

1. I am currently based at TM kelana jaya to support an enhancement project being done there

2. My eldest niece Arisya will be having her UPSR exam

3. I started Amad Melody Project

There are a lot of things in my mind right now but i am currently unable to put them in words. Until next time :) good day.

Amad Melody Project

2010-01-13T00:15:00.002+08:00

check out my reverbnation page at http://www.reverbnation.com/amadmelodyproject

Message to Venus

2009-12-26T17:51:00.002+08:00

My friend Aniz shared an interesting website on facebook. It is about the Venus Climate Orbiter "AKATSUKI" (PLANET-C)mission. scheduled to be launched by JAXA in Japan Fiscal Year 2010. What caught my attention was that they provide us the service of sending our messages or names to Venus. Hey this is seriously awesome. So I posted my message and in turn they provide us the certificate upon successful post. Below is the certificate

Sorry ha ha am not going to share with you guys what my message was. So check it out yea send a message to Venus. Maybe it can bounce back to earth many years later ha ha

An so I say a story should not be easily predicted

2009-12-23T18:27:00.001+08:00

I am indifferent towards the fact that my leave on 28th-31st will be put on hold. have to settle this UAT once and for all. might as well take leave from 30th-5th ha ha oh maybe 6th

Aktiviti simple tapi menghiburkan

2009-12-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

Sebelum ni kalau pegi rumah memember bujang mesti melepet jek kat rumah. ade yang ngadap laptop ade yang tengok tv ade yang melayan gadis kat telefon. tapi kalau dah bosan akan memikirkan aktiviti

antara yang paling saye suke adelah berhibur mencipta lagu. walaupun tak penah satu lagu pun siap.

ini video bulan2 lepas. saye selaku pencipta irama akan terlebih dahulu pikirkan melodi dan yang lain dok je la tgk sambil memberi idea dan komen. kat video ni saye buatkan rhythm lokman carikkan lead si bob tokok tambah bunyi bangsi ajaib dan azhari sirat tulis lirik

cubaan pertama rakam. saya cube menyanyi tapi gagal atas sebab lirik yang corny hahah

last last zarie yang menyanyi dan kami main jek. suara tak dengar sgt. bob tah hilang ke mane dengan bangsi. dan sebenarnye dah lupe pun lagu ni wujud sbb baru jumpe balik video ni. haha lame dah tak buat aktiviti ni

BLACK & WHITE PHOTO Contest

2009-12-21T23:28:00.002+08:00

untuk buang tebiat saya akan masuk pertandingan gambar hitam putih yang di buat oleh encik Ezzan Yusoff. sekian terima kaseh.

Amad Melody Project : Aku budak perasan

2009-12-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

Bulan terang bintang terang
aku duduk berseorangan
aku tuding dekat bintang
tak ada ulasan yang datang

sejuk malam dan bau rumput
aku duduk keseorangan
kuis lantai kayu yang reput
tak ada akal untuk berangan

entah bila dia nak datang
sudah hampir sejuk teh kosong
tak ada apa nak ditayang
melainkan hati yang rompong

elok benar kalau dia tahu
lubang dekat hati ini dia yang potong

pernahkah kamu rasa

2009-12-17T02:43:00.001+08:00

pernahkah kamu rasa
mahu benar mainan robot diwaktu kecil
kamu memujuk
kamu merayu
kamu teriak

merah padam muka ibu dan bapa
di pusat membeli belah

pernahkah kamu rasa
mahu benar pergi ke luar negara
buat orang salji
bercakap keluar wap
pergi ke Disneyland

puas ibu bapa terangkan
kena tunggu mereka kumpul duit

pernahkah kamu rasa
tidak kisah lagi mainan robot
tidak kisah lagi ke luar negara

sebab kamu nampak dia
kamu mahu dia

tapi kena pujuk hati sendiri sebab dia tak tercapai
tapi kena merayu olok-olok pada dia yang tak tahu
tapi kena teriak diam-diam sebab tak tahu nak buat apa

Gadis dukung bayi

2009-12-16T19:55:00.001+08:00

Saya budak perasan

2009-12-15T00:39:00.001+08:00

Bulan terang bintang terang

aku duduk berseorangan

aku tuding dekat bintang

tak ada ulasan yang datang

sejuk malam dan bau rumput

aku duduk keseorangan

kuis lantai kayu yang reput

tak ada akal untuk berangan

entah bila dia nak datang

sudah hampir sejuk teh kosong

tak ada apa nak ditayang

melainkan hati yang rompong

elok benar kalau dia tahu

lubang dekat hati ini dia yang potong

Gadis pijak rumput

2009-12-13T02:27:00.005+08:00

kucing, pungguk, pisang, dan buah pinang

2009-12-10T03:39:00.000+08:00

Saya mahu bawak awak jalan-jalan
cari kucing yang bertanduk dua
cari pungguk yang dah tak rindukan bulan
makan pisang yang berbuah kali kedua

kita belah dua pinang jadi tak sepadan
jalan sama-sama tambah satu lagi kenalan?

yang benar :peminat honeyboney :D

hey lady (filtered. and needs more work)

2009-12-10T02:05:00.002+08:00

Amad Melody project: hey lady

2009-12-04T19:43:00.002+08:00

hey lady don't you go there
because its far
because its far
because its far
I will miss you

Hey lady
you barely knew me
but I fell
but i fell
but i fell
I fell for you

you opened that door
and left it
that door that was tight shut
don't you let the cold winds blew....blew...blew... inside

2009-12-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

dah tulis tapi padam. :)

Bila jatuh hati

2009-12-02T23:59:00.001+08:00

bila jatuh hati dengan perempuan yang cantik
Saya akan menulis
boleh tak kebolehan saya menulis
ganti dengan kebolehan ambil hati

ini sudah pasti bukan puisi
ini tulisan putus-putus

Kisah cemas dan orang berborak

2009-12-02T02:56:00.000+08:00

Pagi.
Menara Celcom
Tingkat 3 Annex

Perut memulas, lantas menggorak langkah ke lift Annex yang kecil lalu tekan butang no 5 sebanyak mungkin (tujuan konon2 lift lebih laju dengan gaya itu)

*info sampingan: penulis terpaksa naik tingkat 5 untuk ke bahagian lain banggunan dan turun ke tingkat empat untuk ke tandas pilihan hatinya.

Tingkat 5
cafeteria

Jalan laju-laju tanpa menyelindung gaya manusia mencari tandas dengan cemas walaupun ada beberapa gadis yang melepasi tapisan untuk dipanggil gadis cantik.

*info kata dalam hati "sila lupakan keadaan diri ini yang sesak wahai gadis-gadis manis puuuh(persis menjampi)"

melepasi kafeteria dengan pantas, berhadapan dengan manusia ramai tunggu lift di tingkat lima. mencelah ke pintu tangga kecemasan.

derep derup bunyi turun tangga gaya bahaya sambil langkah 2-3 anak tangga sekali gus *melepas angin nipis sedas dua*

sampai di tingkat 4 menolak pintu kecemasan sekadar guna kaki, pintu sipi-sipi mau kena akak indon pencuci.

berlari-lari anak ke pintu tandas. lihat ada satu tandas didiami lagi tiga sedia berkhidmad. pilih paling hujung belah kanan (tandas ruji).

tutup pintu.

bersedia.

"HAhahahaHA" kedengaran gelak kuat dan mesra.
*kecis kecis* bunyi pemetik api.
Ada dua manusia mula berborak "customer service bla bla bla.. bisnes baru.. blalala"
"HAhahahaHA" gelak yang mengganggu fokus penulis.

*Info hati: macam mana nak fokus melabur nih. borak kuat. bunyi macam brader-brader yang suka kenekan orang. proses melabur lak ade potensi berbunyi lucu.

2 minit menunggu masih lagi rancak perbualan. selera makin kabur. tapi perut kata mau head on juga. tiada kompromi. emergency!

sedang penulis cemas berfikir. sayup kedengaran "Ehmhph uh"

*Cpoltihurghh cish ciit prohh prohhh kepesh* jamban hujung sebelah kiri berbunyi

cuba tahan gelak. *Cpoltihurghh cish* jamban kiri bunyi lagi......

Penulis: "what the hell.."

*Cpoltihurghh cish ciit prohh prohhh kepesh*

sabung menyabung antara jamban hujung kiri dan jamban hunjung kanan(tempat dimana penulis berada)

yeah borak dalam tandas lagi. dapat dengar duet free.

Universal balance

2009-12-01T16:12:00.003+08:00

On a verge of happiness
That I fell in front of your feet
On a verge of trust
That I saw you turning your back at me
On a verge of smiling bright
That you squashed a lemon in my drink

Umur tujuh tahun

2009-11-30T23:19:00.001+08:00

Terkuis-kuis pasir
Terpintal-pintal baju
Kusut-masai rambut disisir
Bedak dipakai nampak berdebu

Umur tujuh tahun
Gigi pun berselang-seli
Tok mudim pun masih gerun
Sudah pandai bilang jatuh hati

What made me think back

2009-11-29T21:16:00.004+08:00

I just came back home after accompanying my mother to visit a relative at Ampang Hospital, having practically nothing to do I browsed My bestfriend's blog just for the sake of killing my time. One particular post made me wander off about what's missing in my life..

An extract from Zarie's post Wednesday, October 15, 2008 :

"It was last week when emi, joe and I decided to go to Central market to buy our painting stuffs. we bumped into KAMI the Gig, listened to some of the bands and decided to eat at mamaks infront of the CM. during the eating session Ahmad Helmi asked me and joe a question...a nice one, indeed. he said, and I quote " kau rasa hidup kau complete tak?"

I answered "takkanlah. dah kahwin and bila dapat anak, baru lah complete".

he said " memanglah"
..."

That was more than a year ago. Nothing really change much. Yes at this point my accomplishment is merely a tiny dust particle of the thing that I would call complete. Carry on then.

The Last Bid

2009-11-29T03:31:00.005+08:00

I am on a sinking ship enjoying my last view
A note in my hand written on sunny breakfast
How I wish that this blue penned note will reach you
Even though I know you left me in utter disgust

These last words I know will not substitute
The rightful apology that I must bid to you
I cannot blame your option of being mute
Because of the effort I took were only a few

I wish to tell that even on this fateful day
That it had never changed and I Love You So

Antara jujur dan tanggungjawab

2009-11-28T15:38:00.002+08:00

Aku terpanggil nak menulis pasal benda ni, menjadi jujur. Jujur dalam konteks macam mana kita tunjukkan diri kita dekat orang lain. Agak menjengkelkan bila aku dengar orang cakap "buat ape nak jadi fake, jujur je la" dan terus tunjukkan perangai die yang tayang lurah dan minum arak. yeay~~ right on~ jujur sangat. Jujur, memang satu perkataan yang disalah erti. Bagi aku kau orang semua ada otak kan? jangan la nak guna alasan "jujur" untuk tunjukkan perangai yang tak senonoh.

Cube pikir, dah kalau korang rasa korang jujur dengan tunjukkan perangai yang mak bapak korang sendiri larang, agama korang sendiri larang ape lagi guna jujur tu? ALASAN semua tu alasan bodoh untuk selindung daripada kesalahan korang sendiri.

Aku kecewa la jugak sikit sebab antara orang yang guna perkataan "jujur" tu juga terdiri daripada orang yang dipandang tinggi oleh generasi muda sekarang ni. Yea... orang macam ni kena sedar akan tanggungjawab besar yang dia pikul. Ye la mane tak nye, ape ko tulis semua orang setuju. ape yang kau persetankan semua orang persetankan. tak nampak ke impak kau kat dunia bila dah semua orang bersetuju ngan kau? Sekarang kau la otak bagi budak-budak kecik tu sekarang. Oleh itu adalah disarankan apa yang ko rase tak baik ko jangan promote.

Orang kata hipokrit kalau selindung keburukan sendiri? oh tidak.. bagi aku itu dinamakan bertanggungjawab. sebab apa? sebab kalau kau tunjuk kat orang dengan senang hati perangai yang buruk, itu dah dinamakan mempromosikan keruntuhan akhlak. Oleh itu kalau akhlak kau masih lagi sukar nak diperbetulkan, paling-paling pun jangan tunjuk korang suka dengan gaya hidup macam tu. bertanggungjawab sikit ye. Lain la kalau korang nak mengaku terang-terang kesilapan korang tu dan tunjukkan korang dah insaf, itu adalah terbaik.

Seni memang cantik, bahasa memang indah tapi kalau dipandu dengan moral yang bagus ianya lebih berguna untuk masyarakat.

His story

2009-11-27T00:40:00.004+08:00

"Man is eminently a storyteller. His search for a purpose, a cause, an ideal, a mission and the like is largely a search for a plot and a pattern in the development of his life story -- a story that is basically without meaning or pattern."
-Eric Hoffer. American writer

Life is a story, or was it a story is life itself. Everyone of us is a character driven by our purpose, cause and mission and what distinct us from fictional character is that non of us can avoid dying at the end of the story. I like the idea of viewing our whole life as a story, experienced and told by ourselves and the people around us. Look around you, everyone of these people are the players in your play, the actors in your story. I like to highlight my sudden realization and excitement with the fact that we make(be it big or little) impact in every story we play our role in. It is a question of how you give impact to the story, either you are the main character or a minor in someone's life.

A question, how do you get in someone's story? countless ways. Your first appearance might be in a form of a simple "hi :)" or "watch where you're going will ya!?" my personal favorite would be our first cry right after birth, such a majestic scene, our first breath and our first appearance in somebody's life. And once you made yourself appear in the story it is a matter of how your character develop throughout the whole plot.

Some characters get one paragraph in your story, some a page, some a chapter and some special ones stay throughout every chapter in the book. I do belief even the tiny bitty thing a character contribute is an equal number of ink contributed to the book that you call your life. Be it a man you passed by the pharmacy or the irritating sound that you heard from a stranger tapping his plastic file while you are sitting next to him on the train home or even somebody who you talked ill of inside your head even without him realizing you. All this are written in your story. All the details, little little details contributed by the characters surrounding you. The ones that are credited for your sense of judgment, mood, or actions.

For me the big lost for all of us is that we never get to read the whole story about someone (and even ourselves). The story we hear will always be told partially or even deviate from the actual fact. None of us will ever learn about the fully written story about anyone in our lifetime. This fact, has made me wonder of how beneficial it would be if for each of the person dies God leaves us a fully written book of that person's life.Imagine the knowledge we could gather and how many mistakes that we could learn from others. Just imagine that, having known the experience of others before us. For me learning from others is the best way to learn. It is a hundred times better than trial and error.

Writing can be depressing so i just post a creep cover

2009-11-25T02:19:00.002+08:00

My head asked me to draw this

2009-11-24T23:34:00.001+08:00

Pure intentions and outrage

2009-11-23T02:28:00.008+08:00

you know what, I can't persuade myself to go to bed. I was just wondering, doesn't it occurred to any of us that whatever shitty things that happened to us are really learning experiences? don't you feel embarrassed throwing your rage at occurrences or people and once everything clears out you just don't give a damn fuck anymore.

Seriously, does your words or opinions really matters to yourselves? or you just throw any bloody words around to justify your sorry little lives for time being. Some of the simple things that bother me a little about people these days.

#1
You just can't let it go will you? I mean, yea.. you sorry little boys and girls out there. why should you talk bad about the people whom you cannot have? of course your FRIENDS will cheer on for your rants about them, because yeah they are just having fun watching you entertaining them. "I'll make you sorry for leaving" seriously? what good will that do to you? posting out stupid and weak threats to somebody who don't even care. nice move. Come on... you started with good thoughts about them and now you curse them? what a way to win a heart. People like me do observe, you can talk shit about people like me all you want but do consider your dignity for once. Well you do realize when you post it publicly people would love to put their thoughts on it.

#2
People do whine about their lives but everything got their limits no? take it like this, how shitty you think your life is there will always be some other people who had worse than you. yes yes yes there will always be. You bitch about how hard it is dealing with studies and how you hate going to classes and you cannot buy the stuff that you wanted. Simple Stupid Things. You guys are sponsored by your parents! don't you realize of the things neatly laid out for you? Why are you guys furthering your postgraduate studies anyway? you think it was cool to study and you just chose to do it? there are some who had to work to pay for their fees and you guys whom are all fed up nicely by your nice nice parents want to whine some more? very lucky indeed.

#3
Well you had a fight with your significant other... yeah big deal. Very big indeed because it shows in your Facebook pages bi-daily. yes BI-DAILY. You can't blame me for noticing, I am just observant and nosy ha ha. What were the motives here? you want people bud in and resolve your personal problems? or you just wanted to humiliate the other party and failed to realize that the thing you posted are just like a boomerang that is on its way to hit you back on the face?
boyfriend and girlfriend yes yes and married couples too. Happily married couples, Ayang and Anje and Buchuk and Bluek. This is pretty serious guys, don't let reality TV propaganda get the better of you ;)

Yes! im getting sleepy here. Needless to say, even good things can appear fucked up at times. yes yes yes. one last thing that I need to point out. You don't need to show pictures of you and your wife(wives) french kissing just for the sake of promoting your affection towards another. Stop please.. please stop showing those to the rest of the community. Your footsteps are the textbook for future generation. You do realize how much amateur porns are produced by our young generations these days do you?

Agree? Agree? if you don't just ignore this. Ini saya punya blog. yeah

Comic strip source: http://www.penn-olson.com

2009-11-22T02:14:00.001+08:00

"What then have I done? What, except yield to a natural feeling, inspired by beauty, sanctioned by virtue and kept at all times within the bounds of respect. It's innocent expression prompted not by hope but by trust." -Vicomte de Valmont

I don't fool around

2009-11-19T23:03:00.010+08:00

I(the writer) don't like the word hope

a friend once said

"well when you say that you don’t have any hope that means you already do"

I cannot lie to myself. who doesn't want to be happy? but yes falling down with hope is more painful. I do believe if you like someone you should be honest. tell them that you like them. well do you have the guts to go through the healing process all over again? yes there are friends around you. but what about all those lonely nights, those long drive home after work, songs that seems cynical towards the state that you are in, the movies that indirectly made a parody out of your love life?

This kind of entry comes rarely. Only if i feel as restless as of now. don't you hate it if you found someone that you really thought of being 'the one'. because you started to get restless, because you will start to be scared of watching them disappear in front of your very eyes. You try to chase them they will run faster and if you go along with the flow and they will disappear slowly at the rate of the flow you are trailing them. Same case isn't it? So as of now I'm being frank to the one that I truly genuinely interested in. I will come directly to them and say i like you and the verdict is faster. If she is okay with it I will know, and if she is not okay with it I'll just shut up.

You know guys, people don't like you clinging on their life. Saying hi to them everyday can be very annoying sometimes. If your feelings are true, confess to them. Why waste your time beating around the bush and in turn people see you as mere annoyance? even worse a psycho. So save time, there are just two options yes or no. you like them or you don't. And it is up to them to say you can stay or you can buzz of. respect people's space. take it like this, you yourself will not like it if people come up to you day in day out persistently begging for them to take you when the feeling is not mutual.

I like you -> yes? = do your thing

I like you -> no? = shut up, say thank you, and don't be a psycho

girls I'm doing you guys a big big favor here.. ;) plus saving your time from explaining to persistent wooers.

cartoon source www.xkcd.com

missing and missed

2009-11-18T11:28:00.005+08:00

I missed talking
just talking
not prejudiced
but missed

I missed smileys that
came in naturally
not copied
but typed

I missed smiling
seeing characters
formed in phrases
from your fingers

I missed little little things
that made our simple simple conversations

--
Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin | Business Analyst, CompuDyne Sdn
Bhd.

helmi@compudyne.com.my
Sent from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

pantun anak dan ibu

2009-11-18T00:29:00.004+08:00

lihat kucing atas bangku
jilat bulu laju-laju
ibu senyum siapa tahu
dalam hati dia rindu

baju putih gambar hati
kerusi dari kayu jati
hati ibu sudah mati
senyum dia tiada ganti

pakai stokin warna biru
badang badan ketul-ketul
jangan lupa jenguk ibu
baru ibu senyum betul

Superficial me

2009-11-17T22:11:00.005+08:00

Beautiful stranger
smiled at me
made me linger
thinking of what you see

what is it that you see
beautiful stranger
in my empty chamber
is there something that i didn't see?

I am standing here with nothing more
than a ten ringgit note and two cold feet

mind notes

2009-11-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

tersasul mmg bahaya. nak cakap menda lain tapi tercakap menda lain. walaupun maksud sama tapi leh wat orang takut oo. sila jangan tersasul dah ye nak cover balik nanti susah

Ini Betul-Betul

2009-11-11T23:28:00.008+08:00

Cermin tersenyum,
betul
Cermin tersenyum,

Matahari saja-saja
terbit cepat-cepat,

Kereta pun senyap-senyap
panaskan enjin sendiri,

Lampu isyarat tu
saja-saja jadi merah lama-lama,

Baju-baju dekat butik
semua cuba tarik perhatian awak,

Sebab tak sabar nak jumpe awak
semua kata awak cantik,

Betul,
ini bukan main-main,

Awak cantik.

P/s: To the person who put the writers block on me and in turn inspired this piece. :)

Story of a girl

2009-11-08T15:19:00.001+08:00

Nothing to say..

2009-11-07T02:10:00.000+08:00

Contrastive analysis

2009-11-02T02:15:00.007+08:00

Don't love this guy he is too slow
he says hello and engage you in pointless conversations
don't love this guy he is too slow
he thinks to much of how worthy he is because you made more
don't love this guy he is too slow
he took months before he text you and months more before he has the courage to call you
don't love this guy he is too slow
he learns about your interests and took little time to talk about his
don't love this guy he is too slow
he took too long to check on you after you left for someone else who is in turn broken your heart

Don't love this guy he is too fast
he says hello and says he likes you
don't love this guy he is too fast
he asked you out in advance even before he knows when
don't love this guy he is too fast
because he hate how slow he was back then

don't love this guy he is always in time?
maybe there's no thrill with someone who always knows
no space for surprises and nothing to assume

World unite to make a giant chain

2009-10-26T17:35:00.004+08:00

I have a ridiculous project in mind. Is it possible to get as many people holding hands to form a human chain wrapping the whole world? i mean human holding hands from one end and continues until the chain reaches the first person performing the chain. It kinda look like the pic below:
as a whole it would look like this pic below:I know this sounds ridiculous. but a wondrous feat to perform. imagine the whole world connected together.

some pointer that i had thought beforehand:

1. the contact between genders, its not a big deal because we can line up people like this.
-at the point where another person reaches a non mahram(chewah ha ha) we put the one who will hold his/her hands their kin e.g: husband wife, son daugther, nephew, niece etc.

2. we use aircraft carriers to be lined as a bridge between seas in order to let the chain continues above the sea.

3. we use the part of the world which has the least amount of sea. ha ha

shit this sounds so ridiculous. getting the world together is so hard. well one thing good about this it may take away people's interest towards war because they are trying to achieve this idiotic and hard feat. hmm getting the whole world to unite is so hard to do. ha ha

Kawan baik saya

2009-10-20T23:17:00.005+08:00

Saya ada seorang kawan baik, namenye azhari sirat. Kami sama2 menuntut di UIA dan sekarang saya dah keje die sambung masters sambil mengajar kat IIC. Saya amat cemburukan si zarie kerana dia dapat sambung blaja dan saya terperangkap ngan karier. tengahari tadi, sewaktu saya sedang merokok sebelum lunch saya terima satu panggilan daripada azhari sirat. suaranya tercungap-cungap, macam menangis pun ade. saye tanye die ok ke? pastu die tanye busy ke? saye jawab tak ah tgh smoke.. die kedengaran seperti amat susah untuk bercakap. terlalu teruk untuk die mengcover suarenye yang menggigil-gigil. saya pun terus bersabar menunggu berita yang mau disampaikan. setelah hampir lima minit struggle die pun mendapat kekuatan untuk berkata-kata... video dibawah adalah perbualan telefon kami:

sebenarnye bukan nak cite pasal kawan baik dan karier pun. saya nak cite pasal cemburu saya yang dia masih berpeluang melihat perangai pelik foreigner2 kat uia hahaha.Haih.. rindu nye nak sambung blajar haha..

P/s: gamba brader koboi minang kat bawah ni tiada kaitan dengan perbualan

Sow Flowers by Rahman Baba

2009-10-15T15:36:00.001+08:00

Sow flowers so your surroundings become a garden
Don’t sow thorns; for they will prick your feet
If you shoot arrows at others,
Know that the same arrow will come back to hit you.
Don’t dig a well in another’s path,
In case you come to the well’s edge
You look at everyone with hungry eyes
But you will be first to become mere dirt.
Humans are all one body,
Whoever tortures another, wounds himself.

Abdul Rahman Mohmand (b.1653- d.1711)(Pashto: عبدالرحمان مومند) popularly known as (Pashto: رحمان بابا) was called the Nightingale of Pakhtoonkhwa, the Pashto speaking region of Afghanistan and Pakistan. Rahman Baba is a legendary Pashto Sufi poet, and he was even called a new ‘Hafiz Shirazi’.^[1] His poetry places him alongside Khushal Khan Khattak for his contribution to Pashto poetry and literature.

a story worth sharing. got it from an email

2009-10-14T15:19:00.002+08:00

"Burnt Toast"
A beautiful story to ponder upon if everyone in this world learn to accept others mistakes and forgive each other life will move smoothly. J

This is a nice story......Embracin g Imperfection

A story by a girl.

"When I was a little girl, my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work.
On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage, and extremely burned toast in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed!
Yet all my dad did was reach for his toast, smile at my mom, and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember Watching him smear butter and jelly on that toast and eat every bite!

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad For burning the toast. And
I'll never forget what he said: 'Baby, I love burned toast.'

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if He really liked his toast burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, 'Debbie, your Momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides-a little burnt toast never hurt anyone!' You know, life is full of imperfect things.....and imperfect people. I'm not the best housekeeper or cook.'

What I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences - is one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship.

And that's my prayer for you today. That you will learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at the feet of GOD. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to give you a relationship where burnt toast isn't a deal-breaker!

We could extend this to any relationship in fact - as understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child or friendship!! "

"Don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket but into your own." See through God's eyes and feel through God's heart And you will appreciate the value of every soul including yourself.

God bless you all richly

Jika Iqbal bercinta lagi

2009-10-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

Video ni lame dah.. mase ade keje kat Renaissance hotel. menyakat Iqbal ngan lagu jika kau bercinta lagi hahaha

tawa hati dan akal

2009-10-13T11:11:00.001+08:00

Sketch

2009-10-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

Afundi in Me write Me post You read

2009-10-08T17:35:00.002+08:00

There's a new poll going on people. Vote Vote Vote. on top of this blog

Post yang sudah lama di simpan hahaha

2009-10-08T16:56:00.000+08:00

-Hatiku diragut sang cupid rempit-

Aku cedera parah
organ penting diragut cupid rempit
lepas dia ragut dia buat wheelie
pandang lagi skali die tekan brek depan
sebab dia nak buat weekang pulak

ahmad helmi shaharuddin 10/08/09

Kalau kau sama menanti

2009-10-08T00:44:00.004+08:00

Aku

menanti bulan hilang makna

menanti warna jadi sama

menanti kata jadi buku

menanti kamu melihat aku

2009-10-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

please tell her. uh oh dont tell her. (cover)

2009-10-06T12:44:00.001+08:00

Hopes and fears

2009-10-06T10:15:00.004+08:00

Joy and sorrows anew,
Will the sun be rising soon?
Say prayers I did a few,
Will God take me closer soon?

A man who reads poems
will also be judging me too,
With that I cannot affirm,
Of what to tell beneath my stool

Of hopes that linger came back
Of songs that are written in black.

the gentlement's lounge

2009-09-30T02:03:00.001+08:00

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin coffee and cigarette and not talking

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Azhari Sirat

oi macam down jek.mohla kite story mory.hahaha

2 hours ago · Delete

Azleman Bin Kamin

...then start contemplating on past mistakes that in a way shaped the "you" at this particular moment. Now. another coffee please sir.

2 hours ago · Delete

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin

i know the 'me' that is now is a product of my frank utterance of love. haha. im laughing but im dead serious.

2 hours ago · Delete

Fadzreeq Mokti

relax and enjoy every sip of your coffee with less regret of what happens...shit does happen, sabar je la...

about an hour ago · Delete

Azhari Sirat

the fact of the matter is that the "me" inside of you is merely a reflection of a total eclipse in which predispose the entire life experience experienced by you and yourself alone.in the end "me" will naturally lead you to become the cultured entity that you have destined to be.....I'll take that sip of coffee as to show you my gratitude sir.thanks.

about an hour ago · Delete

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin

dear sir, i do believe in learning experiences. but the matter of fact is that there is only one of her and even the slightest particle excluded from the 'her' it wouldnt be 'her' after all wouldnt it? I do venture my eyes upon others but what would that meant? a substitute for God's masterpiece upon my eyes? how i wish i were a young fool back then without any attached feelings to someone that is not even mine. I salute to your view sir and with that i take another sip.

about an hour ago · Delete

Azhari Sirat

Nay!owh dear good sir.I beg to differ though your view is absolutely spotted. but why "her" be or perceived as the only one when there are thousands of whispering eyes, I see gazing naively upon you, ready to offer such wonderful bargain and possibilities?why not move on and accept that "her" is only part of your mystical experiences and by your ... Read moreown right sir, you shall not linger in the past no more. mercy for my insolence sir. I shall be more in control if my words seem to be harsher than my noble intention.

about an hour ago · Delete

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin

lewd naive whispering eyes I seek not. I stumbled upon her during my clearest vision. Not smeared with any lust nor imagination. That is why a big of a deal is ventured upon her and there is only one of her and that made me weary of defeat. I say, have you not felt love sir? or even a single interest in diving into the depth of it? When you gaze your eyes upon the 'her' you wanted you will know of the weariness that I am humming.

about an hour ago · Delete

Mohd Izuddin

Excuse me my dear sir, can you pass that skinny latte please.

I'm utterly sorry for my late arrival.

about an hour ago · Delete

Azhari Sirat

owh excuse yourself sir.be a gent and explore the delicacies as you wish

about an hour ago · Delete

Azhari Sirat

and now where were we?owh sir pardon me for taking light of what you cruelly suffer presently. Indeed I have once dived into the darkness of a broken heart and swam cold into the mysterious world we called love sir.I must say it was unpleasant experience on my part. but sir, know that a humming bird will forever be a humming bird.carefree and ... Read moreunbound to any such entrapment you are currently facing. is there not a single voice in your heart wanting of the same?or you just ready to retreat aimlessly to this unsolved heartache caused by the very "her" that wishes to remain in silence?

56 minutes ago · Delete

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin

I dont blame the very charming 'her' for my tumble. I blame my ludicrous act of uttering my interest even before we have a chance of proper courtships. pure remorse. If only i could turn back time and only watch her from a distance. admiring without a heavy heart. saying in my heart "that is an angel at a distance there you'll have your chance to meet her in heaven". so pathetic i sounded yet i felt good uttering them. I apologize for my weak nature.

42 minutes ago · Delete

Azleman Bin Kamin

well dear gents, the act of exercising our "minds" in the name of gratitude serve the purpose of why we are called human and for to further to defeat such purpose is to; like what you dear sir are eclipsing the real "you" by bring forth the "animated" being puppeteer by the hand of those who are insolent!! Arise and march but the again, pour more than usual will you, i insist.

41 minutes ago · Delete

Azhari Sirat

now hold on noble sir for your accusation of being weakness is respectfully declined by me. I see not of the same view as yours for I understand the nature beseth gracefully in your characters. weak you not sir but blame it perhaps on the love itself. all my life I have seen noblemen and warriors fell down for not because they were weak but love ... Read moresir.the sin of love is so damned treacherous that we shall forever be cursed for being too honest and angelic towards our female counterpart.

now hold there my governor. do pour me that fine coffee please.I really need to quench my thirst now.go on sir...I'll listen.

27 minutes ago · Delete

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin

well good companies you all are good friends.It is not in our nature to pour our hearts about love. well gentlemen you had heard enough of my stories and if you were listening from the very beginning that is how much it hurts. love and interest are ironic in their own display. they are supposedly the bridge to happiness but bridges do tremble and fall apart and lead us to our woes. The more we chatter the more sublime these coffee seems to be. do have more sir.

18 minutes ago · Delete

Azhari Sirat

well articulate on your behalf sir.no words can describe me of my concern over you sir but indeed a small conversation like this can simply be the best medicine. I assure you that we are all in the same boat and nothing in this world can understand how much pain are you bearing upon your shoulder but true to my intention, we are here for you always.now pass me that majestic looking blueberry scone over there...

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Dilemma of a beloved

2009-09-23T02:13:00.003+08:00

Please good sir!
i have tried to evade you in the best possible ways possible
i tried tolerating your attempts and hope we can be friends
but now I'm afraid you seemed to be too persistent
I just wanted you too understand
even though you did all the right stuff from end to end
if it is not mutual we are not meant to be

Please good sir!
dont waste your mind on me and dont think too much
I aint't worth a single line of your poems
nor benefits a single stroke of your drawing pen
draw your creative attempts to something worth sharing to the world
you'll just hurt yourself being the only one understanding your lines
same goes to your strokes

Please good sir!
I dont know how you feel
true. i dont have the slight intention of experiencing any of them
you only knew that you wanted me
without the slightest concern of the many things that is going on in my life
please good sir, I dont need this right now.

Kisah bosan adik beradik

2009-09-23T00:17:00.002+08:00

Wargh! jerit diriku
ape benda yang paling best kat dunia ni aa? aku bertanya kepada midi adikku
kikikih itu saja balasan yang diterima apabila aku kuarkan soalan pelik itu.
ya kami bosan tak tau nak buat apa. dua2 tengah tadek membe dan stuck kat bilik ngadap laptop.
wargh! midi pula menjerit.. lantas menyambung kata-kata dulu... internet lah segala galanya...sekarang? suara persis gadis suci yang baru dicabul kehormatan. kami terus tertawa terbahak-bahak, sekian.

hijab

2009-09-22T18:28:00.005+08:00

I have been holding back to write this entry on many instances due to any ill feedback that will be thrown back to me. but alas i chose to write this anyways. Its about my concern on the wearing of head covers or hijab among our sisters. In my humble opinion, the wearing of hijab should cover the head(hair), neck including the chest area. Alhamdulillah there are many out there that have already wear hijab and for those who dont we pray that Allah lead them the way. I believe that wearing a hijab comes with a package, those who wore them should wore them properly and when they wore them they do it with pure intentions to cover their aurah.

What lead me to write this entry is the thing with our sisters that had beforehand wear hijab properly and in turn suddenly chose to reveal the front part of their hair like we see in many occasions. i call them the mak datin fashion. many of you guys know me better, i am not a man to be consult with regarding religious issues but i dont know, this phenomenon really made want to express my opinion even though i know many will just smirk at my attempt. For me it's a pity for those who HAD WORE THEM PROPERLY to just let go what they had before just to be 'in' and up to date and show their shiny foreheads with a taste of front hair coming out of their pashmina( i noticed these a lot). I mean yeah its not my say but i am just wondering why. because you guys had started ok at the beginning. I think thats all leads to freewill huh? It sucks to share your opinion when your knowledge in the area is so tiny.

p/s: i had to suppress my swear words ha ha ha

saya dan rakan rakan

2009-09-21T14:13:00.004+08:00

dari kiri: sakip, zarie, amad emi, leman, sarip, joe, amir izwan

p/s sila click image untuk view lebih besar

Happy Eidul Fitri to all muslims :)

2009-09-19T22:08:00.002+08:00

Lupa

2009-09-16T22:41:00.001+08:00

I always forgot the lyrics of the songs that i like. This is a good example

Kalo slalu saya sebut siti tu adalah dia ni, bukannya manusia

2009-09-16T22:26:00.000+08:00